This is Crystal. Kalisa is doing her thing at not letting anyone out except when necessary-like to drive. Even at the drs she is out any more. I guess to make sure they dont do anything that she would not approve.
I have asked the main VA dr for a therapist - but it hasnt happened. He thinks it is because there is NOT one that handles DID. Want else is new! I wish I was still in Mburg where there a therapist to go to. "We" actually miss going to therapist.
The tortoises "furnace" blew up the other day. Cant complain- lasted 2 1/2 yrs going cont at 90-100 degrees! Guess I would blow up too if I did that for 2 1/2 yrs! They have a rm heater that is at 84 degrees but they seem sluggish and not really interested in eating. I go to Johnson City to the dr next week- that is where the nearest pet store is at that has a "furnace" for them. (80 miles !) I guess that can be a belated Xmas present for them!
K is getting the Lily Rose doll from Aston Drakes-you have to send in a reserve card-might not get here till Feb. And for her B-day she is getting her very own "baby Gracie" doll. She will be so thrilled when she gets that!
The head has been hurting so bad and the MS is kicking in-I guess because of the snow. We have a really warm day and then it drops in the teens. Not a good thing for a person with MS. Makes your life really miserable. Even goes over to K who doesnt feel very well when it kicks in. She always wants her blanky and her mommy.
Elizabeth was able to get out the other day and post here. And Charlie tried to get out but K wouldnt let her. After what Charlie did- got us kicked off the Adult Survivor site after posting there. K was so upset and still is that she cant put her art there. She feels so lost and alone. And she misses her "mommy". Wish her "mommy" would just write her a "hello" note. K is starting to get depressed. She usually just goes with the flow but not lately.
K has fould while doing her polyvore art - that a certain bunny is a "safe thing" to have and that her"Enore pjs and animals are safe things". She would like that bunny-we will have to see about getting her one. She hasnt carried her lambs around since moving here. Asked her about that and only got a stare.
There is one man who does go around and exposes hims self to young girls-K was walking the dog one night and he did it to the teen girls next door. They were sitting outside. He did it as he walk passed them.
There is a known child perp that lives the next street over. K hasnt run into him yet.
She still has the flashbacks during the rain storms-rainstorms I dont think will ever be safe to her.
I wonder if that is why (the rain) when we drove here the very first time while "moving" here from PA -that we lost 2 hrs and got lost 10 miles from here? I still dont know what happened those two hrs and I really dont remember the 8 hr drive(that turned into a 10 hr drive) either. Would like to know what happened that very rainy drive that day. Maybe someday we will remember. (sign)
Well K wants to do a "picsure".
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Sleepy finally...
Well K did a few pics on polyvore and a couple that she "gooed" together and after 2 glasses of lemonade and finishing off a bad of pretzels she is now ready to quit and try sleeping.
Night mommys-eyes lubs yous berry berry muchs-es. Heres bees a biggests bestests huggs-es ebers justeds fors yous !
Night mommys-eyes lubs yous berry berry muchs-es. Heres bees a biggests bestests huggs-es ebers justeds fors yous !
Another sleepless night
Cant sleep again - took some pills to see if they would help.
Between the ft and the mouth (fell with a fork in my mouth over 6 months ago-the prong of the fork went into the gum and it never healed-tunneled up into the cheek and towards the nose and -yes gross-drains blood and pus). That will be oral surgery-have to be put to sleep for that.
As a child our father took us to a dentist who hit you if you didnt sit still - so this body avoids dentists- and it carries over to Kalisa. If she knows we are going to a dentist-she wont let ANYONE come out to get us there!
So maybe these pills will kick in soon and we can sleep-I think we are pretty many nights without sleep.....
Between the ft and the mouth (fell with a fork in my mouth over 6 months ago-the prong of the fork went into the gum and it never healed-tunneled up into the cheek and towards the nose and -yes gross-drains blood and pus). That will be oral surgery-have to be put to sleep for that.
As a child our father took us to a dentist who hit you if you didnt sit still - so this body avoids dentists- and it carries over to Kalisa. If she knows we are going to a dentist-she wont let ANYONE come out to get us there!
So maybe these pills will kick in soon and we can sleep-I think we are pretty many nights without sleep.....
Monday, November 29, 2010
Watched by Government
To anyone who is a survivor of abuse and thinks they are being watched by the government.......
I was informed of a program the gov has- it originally was created for AWOL soldiers...
but they can pull you up by any bank card, credit card, etc and at that moment can tell where you are by the last transaction of the card- and even if a ATM card - not only can they tell where and exact time- but what you purchased!
And with new phones coming out that are GPS-they can tap very easily into that and know where you are at the exact moment!
Let alone your computer - there are people in the different branches of the government that are called "watchers" - all they do ALL day is watch what is going on on peoples computers- you are flagged if certain words are used several times - and then you are on their list to watch and whether you are a threat.......
How do I know? The host's son was offered a job as a watcher but turned it down (he said after he heard you had to raise your hand to go to the bathroom and escorted in and out the room where he would work) he said that was a little too much for him. That was the Army -then the FBI offered him the same job-turned them down to!
But a buddy of his was trained on the AWOL program and not only ran the son's name, but my name also(they found out that I was at Walmart and what I bought). He was still talking to his buddy when I got home and I was asked if I knew a person - I said yes - It was I person I knew and they ran that person-not only did she come up but came up as "flagged" which means they are watching her on her computer and ALL computers at that address! Why they ran her name-son was thinking of people that we knew -he had heard me say her name several times-they ran alot of peoples names that day - the whole family - ex's - etc.
Yes this was all done illegally by the guy - he said it was a new program and he was just testing it and just needed names of people to run.
This was 2 yrs ago! SO that means that person has been watched for about the last 2 years!
My computer isnt being watched right now-but it was when I was living in PA.
How do I know - the host's son told us. He knew that right after he went in the ARMY both the computer and the phone were being monitored by the gov. Thats when he found out about the "watchers".
Guess Kalisa isnt any interest to them right now.
Probably after this entry- I will be "flagged"!
OH well- hey guys-how about a job? Does it pay good?
So we DO NOT have freedom of speech and we DO NOT have privacy in are homes.
I was informed of a program the gov has- it originally was created for AWOL soldiers...
but they can pull you up by any bank card, credit card, etc and at that moment can tell where you are by the last transaction of the card- and even if a ATM card - not only can they tell where and exact time- but what you purchased!
And with new phones coming out that are GPS-they can tap very easily into that and know where you are at the exact moment!
Let alone your computer - there are people in the different branches of the government that are called "watchers" - all they do ALL day is watch what is going on on peoples computers- you are flagged if certain words are used several times - and then you are on their list to watch and whether you are a threat.......
How do I know? The host's son was offered a job as a watcher but turned it down (he said after he heard you had to raise your hand to go to the bathroom and escorted in and out the room where he would work) he said that was a little too much for him. That was the Army -then the FBI offered him the same job-turned them down to!
But a buddy of his was trained on the AWOL program and not only ran the son's name, but my name also(they found out that I was at Walmart and what I bought). He was still talking to his buddy when I got home and I was asked if I knew a person - I said yes - It was I person I knew and they ran that person-not only did she come up but came up as "flagged" which means they are watching her on her computer and ALL computers at that address! Why they ran her name-son was thinking of people that we knew -he had heard me say her name several times-they ran alot of peoples names that day - the whole family - ex's - etc.
Yes this was all done illegally by the guy - he said it was a new program and he was just testing it and just needed names of people to run.
This was 2 yrs ago! SO that means that person has been watched for about the last 2 years!
My computer isnt being watched right now-but it was when I was living in PA.
How do I know - the host's son told us. He knew that right after he went in the ARMY both the computer and the phone were being monitored by the gov. Thats when he found out about the "watchers".
Guess Kalisa isnt any interest to them right now.
Probably after this entry- I will be "flagged"!
OH well- hey guys-how about a job? Does it pay good?
So we DO NOT have freedom of speech and we DO NOT have privacy in are homes.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Overheard K conversation
This is Crystal - I over heard K talking to her "babies" today.
She was telling them about the "gov-ment" watching on the computers. She was saying that her "friend" that they are watching shouldnt write about stuff that makes them watch her- such as the last couple of days about airports and the gov themselves. That is why she ended up on the watch list.
K was kinda cute "explaining" things to her babies. Love the way she says big words!
K has been busy with making her "picsures" on ployvore. She made a "picsure" letter to Santa with what she wants for "Kiss-miss". I know she would like a baby Gracie doll but there is another doll we would like to get first. Have to see if we have enough money to send in the first payment-it is rather expensive but quite unique-we will have to wait and see.
Go to the ft dr on Tues-they should take out the rest of the pins out of the toes. That ft really hurt bad today-pain pills didnt even take care of the pain! Not suppose to walk on it for at least another 6-7 wks. Right! with K-that is like telling her not to eat a piece of candy after she has it in her mouth!
Well K is telling me I have been out long enough! She is sooo strong when it comes to controlling this body! Till later!
She was telling them about the "gov-ment" watching on the computers. She was saying that her "friend" that they are watching shouldnt write about stuff that makes them watch her- such as the last couple of days about airports and the gov themselves. That is why she ended up on the watch list.
K was kinda cute "explaining" things to her babies. Love the way she says big words!
K has been busy with making her "picsures" on ployvore. She made a "picsure" letter to Santa with what she wants for "Kiss-miss". I know she would like a baby Gracie doll but there is another doll we would like to get first. Have to see if we have enough money to send in the first payment-it is rather expensive but quite unique-we will have to wait and see.
Go to the ft dr on Tues-they should take out the rest of the pins out of the toes. That ft really hurt bad today-pain pills didnt even take care of the pain! Not suppose to walk on it for at least another 6-7 wks. Right! with K-that is like telling her not to eat a piece of candy after she has it in her mouth!
Well K is telling me I have been out long enough! She is sooo strong when it comes to controlling this body! Till later!
Doing Picsures
Eyes bees doing picsures. Eyes cants goes sleeps a nites cuz its bees wainings wreally wreallys hardeds outsideds.
And dats means dats de badded boys-es comes getteds yous whens its does dats.
Sews yous habes toos stays wakes sews deys nots getteds yous.
Eyes habes briff-days cakes and ice creams. Its bees Franks briff-days yeser-days.
Crystals bees outs a whiles yers-days. She madeds picsures sews my new mommys knoweds dats de gov-ments watching hers on hers wittle tb fings. She gennas bees maddeds bout dats.
Butts de mans from de armys says dats hers names-es bees ons de wists.
Sews Crystals gibes hers a picsures sews she knoweds dats. Eyes hopeds dats shes sees de picsures.
Eyes gennas madeds some mores picsures nows.
And dats means dats de badded boys-es comes getteds yous whens its does dats.
Sews yous habes toos stays wakes sews deys nots getteds yous.
Eyes habes briff-days cakes and ice creams. Its bees Franks briff-days yeser-days.
Crystals bees outs a whiles yers-days. She madeds picsures sews my new mommys knoweds dats de gov-ments watching hers on hers wittle tb fings. She gennas bees maddeds bout dats.
Butts de mans from de armys says dats hers names-es bees ons de wists.
Sews Crystals gibes hers a picsures sews she knoweds dats. Eyes hopeds dats shes sees de picsures.
Eyes gennas madeds some mores picsures nows.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
LOst Time
Seems like "we" have lost time again....hours where I (Crystal) do not remember want has been going on in the life of this body.
We had our foot operated on and in a wheel chair because we do not have the strength to do the crutch thingy... did have a split cast on and that was taken off last week and one pin pulled from one toe -still have 2 pins in 2 toes and a plate that will stay in the big toe ... this is all the left foot...
that was the one the "badded boys"ran over a while back.... one time when they took Kalisa and tortured her.
Cant do much..cant walk the dog-just let her out the door and watch that she doesnt run off. The tortoises like to bite at the dressing that is now on the foot-in a walking cast boot but am not allowed to walk on it for another 8 wks! Right! Tell that to Kalisa! She is walking on the heel all the time! She isnt doing too much - the foot hurts too bad to do anything.
Oh here she comes !
My turns-es now ! Eyes nots wrights heres ins a wongs wongs times-es!
My mommys briff-days bees de utters days. Eyes gibes hers a briff-days cards ons poly-bores. Eyes hopeds dats she sees its. Eyes wishes she gibes mees a wittles wetters or picsures.
Eyes writeds Santa a wittles wetters toos. Eyes hopeds dats he getteds its. Eyes hopeds dats eyes getteds my Kiss-miss-es prizes dats eyes asseds fors. Eyes onlys asseds fors one fings.
It soons bees times-es fors turkeys -butts we nots habes none dis years. Cuz we bees toos poors and nots habes nuff stamps toos getteds ones.
Eyes justeds hopeds dats eyes getteds my Kiss-miss-es prizes dis years. Eyes nots getteds nuff-fings lasts years.
Eyes justeds bees sews saddeds. Nobodys talkeds toos mees heres no mores and no bodys gibes me picsures or nuff-fings. Eyes finks deys all forgets bouts me now.
Maybees eyes makeds a new picsures nows.
We had our foot operated on and in a wheel chair because we do not have the strength to do the crutch thingy... did have a split cast on and that was taken off last week and one pin pulled from one toe -still have 2 pins in 2 toes and a plate that will stay in the big toe ... this is all the left foot...
that was the one the "badded boys"ran over a while back.... one time when they took Kalisa and tortured her.
Cant do much..cant walk the dog-just let her out the door and watch that she doesnt run off. The tortoises like to bite at the dressing that is now on the foot-in a walking cast boot but am not allowed to walk on it for another 8 wks! Right! Tell that to Kalisa! She is walking on the heel all the time! She isnt doing too much - the foot hurts too bad to do anything.
Oh here she comes !
My turns-es now ! Eyes nots wrights heres ins a wongs wongs times-es!
My mommys briff-days bees de utters days. Eyes gibes hers a briff-days cards ons poly-bores. Eyes hopeds dats she sees its. Eyes wishes she gibes mees a wittles wetters or picsures.
Eyes writeds Santa a wittles wetters toos. Eyes hopeds dats he getteds its. Eyes hopeds dats eyes getteds my Kiss-miss-es prizes dats eyes asseds fors. Eyes onlys asseds fors one fings.
It soons bees times-es fors turkeys -butts we nots habes none dis years. Cuz we bees toos poors and nots habes nuff stamps toos getteds ones.
Eyes justeds hopeds dats eyes getteds my Kiss-miss-es prizes dis years. Eyes nots getteds nuff-fings lasts years.
Eyes justeds bees sews saddeds. Nobodys talkeds toos mees heres no mores and no bodys gibes me picsures or nuff-fings. Eyes finks deys all forgets bouts me now.
Maybees eyes makeds a new picsures nows.
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