Thursday, July 12, 2012

Crystal here-I hate it when they change things around here on the pages! I just get the hang of things and then they go and change it again!
Well we have been zoning out lately-havent done that in a long time-I wonder if it is because these dumb drs around here keep trying to change my medicine!
I think I am going to go to the free programs like we were on before and get back on all the meds before moving to VA.
I know I had a small stroke several weeks ago and the fact that they cant fix my heart- it is the small blood vessels around the heart that are the worst- and that is suffer with the pain- have small heart attacks which will lead up to a big one that will kill you off!
We are just sooo tired!  With the heart thing and then the stomach thing with the bleeding-I think we need blood again....wish we were back in Pa at least there most of the drs listened to what you had to say.
That cyst in the face is acting up and now we have another cyst- next week we go to Johnson City to the heart dr and we will have to wait forever in the ER and have that other cyst lanced and drained and packed!  What fun-just what I wanted to do! And to keep K in her place while we are down there- there are so many things that she can get into!
There is a person on PolyVore that thinks she can control K-we were warned and that problem is I hope solved! K wanted her mommy(who by the way is getting married this month) to help her-but there was no help from her.
Next month we go to the eye dr - I want our eyes fixed so we can see- getting rid of cataracts and whatever is wrong with the left eye that they might be able to fix instead of going blind. Why wait-just do it and get it over with.
ShadowMan has been out several times and made pics on Poly.  And there is another alter who has not reveled a name that has been out.  K lets the wall down when we are really sick.

 ANd that has been alot lately- I am even getting tired of being sick all the time and taking all those crappy pills! But dont worry mom-we dont need to "goeds toos  jails" as K calls the psych wards! Last time that was said we ended up in the psych ward!  And we didnt need to be there because we WERE taking our meds they way we were suppose to!
Well thats all my griping for now!

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Forgetting More Noticable (to "us")

Happy 4th July to you too!
This is Crystal-we are loosing it! Bethany helped get all the pics K wanted for a picture and then K forgot what she wanted them for!  K usually isnt bothered by the "I forgot" part of "us! This is a first for her!
So does that mean we are getting worse?
I never know what to think about things somethings.
But it is nice to know that K's mommy still thinks about her. Her sends these -if you want to call it-subtle messages through her poly pics to K. Others dont realize what she is doing- but I do.  She might as well just write to K and be done with it.  Stand up and admit the mistake- it was me who did that pic after a jerk called me all kinds of names over the phone that evening. K was the one to suggest that I do a pic "sews  yous  feeleds betters".  So I did but someone else took  it being for her and that is why "mommy" doesnt "talk" to K.  It really makes me feel bad that happened. And there isnt anything I can do.  She at least can do as she does with others on poly- just a line or two and "hey nice pic".

And the nerve condition-with the jerking of the hands and arms- is getting worse. Doc said take an Ativan when that happens. That stuff is addictive! But the jerking is not only getting more frequent but worse in the jerking it self! Alot of fun when you are trying to eat!

I think there is an alter that is trying to make themself known!weird pics are being collected on poly-not stuff that K would collect!
Sometimes I wish she wouldnt "collect" so many pics she likes"fors waiters(later). I am the one that has to file all of them! We have ovr 200 pages to file right now- really I think it is more like 300!
But it give K something to do that keeps her busy and out of trouble!
I cant even keep my train of thought tonight to do this!
I wonder what is going on?
Life is always interesting! But sometimes I think it is dangerous also.