Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Why Cant Life Be Simple ?

Art therapy is good for the soul!
It helps release all kinds of emotions.
And it doesnt have to be a collage of pictures - it can just be a picture that is colored.
Below the first two are Kalisa's.
Not all art work is depressing or despairing.

Piggys playing in the mud!

A rainbow for her favorite person!

Some "Happy" art work as the day started out.

Trying out some new markers -dont like them. They bleed through and the colors are not good. What happened to the orange? It looks brown! I will let Kalisa have them!

The "little boy's" house.

Kalisa says a little boy lives in a picture that was hanging in her therapist's office.He needed help to get away from the "badded mens".
She would talk to him and he would talk to her.

So goes the life of a "DID""!

And the day was still going pretty good-


You get the mail!

My disability check is going to be held till the company gets over $17,000.00 that they say I OWE THEM !!!! RIGHT!!!!

I am hoping that my checking acct is not over drawn! Would be the very first time in my life that that every happened!
So I guess they arent getting any money!
Besides they are on my bankruptcy. So they arent getting anything anyways!


I go to the drug store to pick up my bag of pills that keep me alive and they tell me that co-pay will be $100 a month for all of them till I reach my deductible.
Remember the bank acct numner is ZERO!!!!
Now just where am I going to get a hundred dollars a month when the yo-yos are holding my check?
Any reason to become depressed?
Or just maybe severely depressed and sit down on the floor and bawl your head off?
Any reason to just say what the hell-would be better off dead so who needs all those pills any how?
And so goes the daily life of this DID person.
And other people think they have problems!!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Another Looooong Nite!

These are my anger rocks for the day! Need something to beat on and take the anger away! Anger for everthing today!

What is the missing piece?
Am I the missing piece?
Where is the missing piece?

Why do they have to pick on Kalisa?
Why cant they just leave her alone?
I am soooooo tired of those creeps!
I am so confused! It is hard to thnk - I cant remember what I am doing in the middle of doing something!
I hate this!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

We Live in the House We Built

We -all parts-alters- live in the house we built.
Sometimes the house changes shape, size, color,location -especially when Kalisa decides to blow it up and then makes a new one! She has done that several times now in the past three years since therapy started. Currently- we dont have one!
She made herself one but alters were not included in that "construction".The above are pictures of some of the littles - she was going to put their names by their pics but I guess she got sided track into something else! But yes there are that many running around upstairs! Kalisa and Bethany are the only littles that "come out". Bethany helps Kalisa on the computer. That is the only time she comes out. The rest of the littles for now- stay inside but they are there!
Below is a combined effort of all the littles- all age groups- that made this collage- it is only one - once again done on over sized paper and dittys here doesnt know how to make it one!
So you figure it out!
I'll help - it is the littles ad for a therapist -

My Turnses !!!

Kalisa wants her turn here!

They had her over Christmas and New Years.
She still hasnt opened her Christmas presents. They are still sitting unopened under a little 2 ft tree - which she doesnt want taken down or turned on. ???
She did get 2 new "babies" - she wasnt even excited about getting them. The only thing she did was to dress them in warmer clothes.
Her "babies" are Ashton-Drake dolls- real looking "baby" dolls.
She has some of her own "art" work.
Art thereapy is good for the soul!

All alters since Nov have done over 300 collages. Need to buy stock in glue!

I will put Kalisa's collages on here- now she did some on over sized paper and the printer does not have a shrink feature - so you get a left and right sides to look at. Havent figured out how to combine them yet- no brain energy to think on something like that.
Remember what you are looking at is considered "art therapy" - can be trigering to some ...........

One of these days I will figure this picture thing out and get the stuff on here the right way - till then - it is - oh well!!!!!!!!!!!

Get This off my chest First

Well havent been here for awhile- was at the hospital every day for IVs for 1 1/2 wks and the dr appointments and all that medical crap!

Pic over here- my head pain that I have all the time since they took out 2 small brain tumors and had to put a metal plate in there to hold the piece of skull in place till it heals.

Since the cold weather set in- it hurts horribly !

Pressure and pain at the left temporal area and left eye-worse then sinus pain!

Anybody out there want it?

Then you have all these other germs inside you-

Just sitting there waiting their turn to grow and cause more problems! Lovely little miserable things!

And then there is the never ending daily confusion

and then there is just more and more confusion ..............

Does it every stop????????

Will it ever end??????????????????????