For those who have not read earlier posts- "we" live only 1/2 block from the fire department.....
sirens going off all night and all very close by - the fires.......
K is beside herself...... she thinks they are coming to get her and take her to "jail"......."jail" to her is the psych ward.
A year ago "we" were held - against our will - just because a dr said we took up his time so therefore we were going to be admitted whether we needed it or not - to a psych ward. So once in awhile when K gets real anxious - she gets really beside herself some nights with all the sirens. And I guess tonight is going to be one of them.
Her "new mommy" use to let her call her and just leave a voice mail - she wont let her do that anymore...... it use to calm her down to where we wouldnt have to take medication - I would sooner just do a phone call to voice mail then pop pills...... but what can we do now? And now with the insurance stuff- soon there will be no pills and then I dont know what we will do........
We will be a royal mess!!!!
And no adult part wants to come out........sometimes I dont want to come out....... Kalisa is regressing back to just a four year old state with no regard to the rest of the world...........there is just no help out there for us.......
We are more then just alone......... we are forgotten.........deserted........abandoned............
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