This is Crystal - (I am 16 yr old part)
I have come to the conclusion that maybe Kalisa has it made. She doesnt have to handle the everyday stuff - I should say the everyday life stuff....I can see why people have the problems they do.... I liked just being the "me part" and only having to handle the "part" stuff.
Everyday life sucks! I can see why Terry (the host) and Elizabeth - the main adult part that took over after Terry went on her permanent "vacation" (as K calls it) ducked out !
Elizabeth thought it isnt worth the hassle anymore since K only has to survive everyday living - E did the driving and the bills and doctor stuff.
But since there isnt any therapy - of any kind to go to - and since the president and the state took away our medical insurance - that means NO doctors - no money to go to them! "We" owe about $4000.00 in dr bills for last year... What do you do when you dont have the money to pay them? I mean I am asking the question as a question.... What do you do? I mean - I dont know.
We got the food situation conquered yesterday - went to a church and they will give us food for the next 3 months. So we got that figured out.
Had to do a car inspection the other day. Had no idea what the guy was talking about - only knew that used our food and electric bill money to get the car inspected.
K just "takes care of her babies" (life like dolls) She thinks that they are really real! And treats them that way. She has her 4 "torgues-es" (tortoises) and the dog. She plays on polyvore and Facebook with her "fluff" and is content.
Now last week - this poor body was soooooo sick! "We" had to get the IV for 3 days for the MS flare up -it is like getting a chemo treatment. We got so sick from it this time around. Other times we didnt get that sick at all. K actually stayed in - only came out to try and I say try to eat some cookies or something like that. Came out a couple of times while watching "the babies getting borneds" on TV. She still is trying to figure out how they get in there! Remember the t trying to explain that to her - could tell that the t never had any kids! lol
Just wish K's "new mommy" would just send her a "hi" or make her a pic on poly for her - would get her out of the depression she is in. I feel she owes K that much.
"We" are always going to exisit. "We" are never going to get the opportunity to "heal" - this body will go out of this wold in its present DID state because there just isnt any help out there for us to do the necessary healing. In a couple of weeks the body turns 56 - and with the present health state of the body "we" dont have that opportunity of time - to get and have necessary healing.
At least there is no more abuse - since the bad man "droppeds obers deadeds" as K says. That was in Nov last year.
So now it is bad memories and all the alters....
We did find out thate Charlie - the "I want to die " part - is female not male. We and the t thought it was male.
And there is Willow, Autumn, Emily - new child parts that have made themselves known on polyvore.
I wonder how many other parts there are?
Oh well, I guess I complainded enough for awhile............